Day 20 of my Moksha teachers training, I don't know where the time has gone. It is hard to believe we are more than half way through. In our first week when we were trying to adjust to what seemed like a grueling schedule it appeared as if time was standing still. Now in our third week; 5 am wake ups, 3 asana practices a day, several hours of lectures and walking to and from the studio has become a welcomed routine that is now second nature in my body.
I would have loved to have captured my thoughts and feelings from the amazing lectures and "aha" moments that have happened so far, but exhaustion usually extinguished all thoughts of dong anything more that eating and sleeping when the day was done. That was until today when one of my sangha members gave a presentation that left me speechless and reflecting on my own presence in this world. Lisa, for the sake of protecting her identity, started her presentation by discussing a moment in history that she bore witness to and changed the lives of many of us. Lisa did not dwell on what lead to the actions of 19 individuals that day or the devastation that she saw but instead she discussed the role we all played in what happened. Lisa described her theory as "owning our shit". We may not have sat and devised the scheme that forever changed the lives of many but on a smaller scale our inaction everyday in matters that we can change is just as harmful. As taken a back as I was today by no means did I think Lisa was trying to make a comparison and neither am I but I totally get where she was coming from. How we show up every day and our inability to take responsibility for our own actions or lack there of has more of an effect on the world than we think. Everyday we hear of atrocities occurring throughout the world, some closer to home than others. Besides an empathetic sigh what have we done? What have I done?
Today I felt the embarrassment of my inaction and witnessed a similar reaction in the rest of my sangha members, I realized that this journey we are on is so much bigger than learning to teach yoga. It is about learning to take our yoga off our mats and into world so that we could create change. Fifty six warriors of peace all willing to own our shit and with any luck, teach others to own theirs as well.