At the beginning of this year I started this blog with hopes of capturing my thoughts during this new chapter in my life. Since then I have drafted several posts which have yet to actually be published on my page. Most of the drafts have been rewritten and altered so many times that they no longer really capture my original thought. So much for being authentic!
This past Friday I stepped out of my comfort zone and attended a Yoga Rave at my yoga studio. In the past when events like this came up I would usually find a friend to go with or check to see if I knew anyone attending before I would commit. This time I decided that I was going to not let my fear of maybe not fitting in or having someone to talk to stop me from experiencing something I was very curious about.
I am so happy that I did not let fear control my choices that night because I had one of the most amazing experiences that I have encountered in sometime. Let me begin by describing what we walked into at this Yoga Rave. The owners of the studio, two incredible sisters, converted our practice room into the most exhilarating yoga club with a live DJ, strobe lights, glow bands and a drummer. All of the students were wearing some form of white and the energy in the room was palpitating. We all took part in an amazing 90 minute hot flow class to some great music and then cooled down in a 15 minute mediation. One would think that this was the highlight of the night however it was the events that occurred afterwards that made my night.
After practice our teacher expressed how blessed she was feeling. She was overwhelmed by the fact that this event could draw so many people. There were a few staff members and other teachers but many of the attendees were members of the studio's community, with the sole connection being their love of Moksha and the space the owners have created. This feeling of Sangha and community could definitely be felt after our practice.
After we finished cleaning up the studio we decided to go out for drinks and food, Sitting at our table I was amazed by the beautiful racially different faces that made up this surrogate family. During our conversation the topic came up that I had submitted my application to teacher's training this fall. The encouragement, advise and well wishes that followed was unfathomable. Even though I have always felt the love and inclusion at my studio I could never have anticipated how invested my Moksha family would be. If I ever had any doubts about this new chapter, they were definitely washed away by the love I felt Friday night.
Which brings me back to the beginning of this post. I have been letting fear of what others might think and whether what I had to say was good enough derail my true intentions for my blog. What I write my not resonate with everyone but it is what is resonating with me, which is why I want to capture it here. If for some reason it is able to speak to someone else who may be thinking about changing things up in their life or perhaps encourage some to make changes then that's a bonus. Until then I am just going to continue to confront my fears, one step at a time.